The time I had set aside this past weekend to reflect, write and get myself set up for the week in my business evaporated. Like, a whole entire day and a half, just gone.
This weekend offered me a deep practice in flexibility. To let go of solo plans I felt very attached to and instead navigate some uncontrollables that surfaced.
Saturday when I realized my time was not going to look and feel as planned, I struggled. I found myself internally fighting the truth of what was happening and felt pretty irritated as the day unfolded.
By the end of the day I was completely exhausted and agitated. I had not used my tools and strategies. My body had not been in that kind of extended state of frustration in a long time. I struggled to relax and felt challenged to fall asleep.
Sunday I woke up with a whole free day ahead of me… until it quickly wasn’t anymore.
Gah!
I can’t do another day of this. Fighting myself and the truth of what is happening.
Surrender flooded my system. What would it be like to let go right now? I actually don’t have to hold on. I get to be disappointed about what is happening AND I can give in to what is here.
As I started to mentally let go of what I thought the day was going to look like, an energy of softness entered my body.
I was able to spend the day, uncontrollables and all, in a connected, grounded presence. This greatly served me and my family in all the important ways that were needed.
When space opened up later in the evening, I honored my body and rested. I didn’t try to force myself to check something off my work list.
I cooked a nice dinner for my family.
I took a long shower.
I MELTed.
I looked at my calendar and my week and blocked off space and time for myself.
And then I went to bed.
While I was tired from a stressful day, there was no agitation or extreme exhaustion in my system like the day before. There was a settling and acceptance. I fell asleep with ease and woke up this morning, renewed to start to work on my list.
Now, I know I will not be able to get everything done today and that is okay because it always gets done.
(And good thing I am my own boss. )
This weekend was a beautiful reminder for me about the process of flexibility and surrender.
Things do not always unfold as planned.
How we meet ourselves in those uncontrollable moments greatly impacts how we feel and how we show up for ourselves and the people we care about.
If you are looking for support to tap into the energy of flexibility and surrender I have you covered. There are a few ways we can connect together for support:
1. I have 1 spot open to step into a 6 month 1-1 Somatic Coaching Container starting in June.
