As I looked at the card this weekend that I originally pulled for the energy read for the month of November in preparation to write this email, mixed emotions surfaced immediately.
The card I pulled for November is:
ABUNDANCE
Is it okay for me to focus on generating abundance at a time when so many are suffering and dying? When we are so divided?
I could talk about cultivating an abundance of peace. I could speak to the abundance of compassion that is needed right now. The abundance of gratitude that I have for my family, my life and my path.
But it seems almost silly and trivial to be focusing on abundance when so many things feel outrageously wrong.
And at the same time…
This energy theme is personally a major validation for the magick that has been brewing within me. I/my family have/has been experiencing great unexpected abundance in our lives (as I expressed in the October Energy reading).
As I write this there is a layer of guilt that shows up that things are working right now. That the way we are doing education for our kids is working. The way we have shifted the family dynamic with my husband being home more is working. My business is expanding and it is all unfurling generatively.
Can I let it be good? Can I really feel it in my body? Can my nervous system take in that there is no “danger” right now individually and settle into the gratitude for that privilege right now?
Can I allow myself to enjoy and appreciate the abundance that is here? Can I let that fuel how I show up in my relationships and my work and service in the world?
Feelings of “do I have the right to even feel this way when so much is so wrong?” surface.
Part of healing is holding the both. The tension of the contradiction. Allowing for the paradoxical. Being with the ALL of it. Not needing to fix or solve.
Permission to experience the complexities of all the layers right now.
As I sat more with my resistance to the Abundance card and thought about what to write in the energy update, I decided to call on some guidance from another deck, The Wild Unknown Alchemy Guide Book by Kim Krans, to see if there is another insight or perspective into the month’s energy. Another opinion so to speak!
Tapping into the collective energies for November this card emerged:
Soluto/Dissolution: Surrender, Dissolving, Formlessness
This theme feels deeply resonant to simmer with for the month. Over the last 4 weeks I have been in active exploration of FORMLESSNESS. This is a major nod from spirit to continue paying attention to this thread.
I’ve been intentionally working to orient to spaces and places where my mind and body are not sorting, shifting, planning, organizing, compartmentalizing, categorizing, etc.
Intentionally creating timeless spaces and places to surrender, melt, unfurl, unwind, fall part, dissolve, move into stillness, etc.
This has felt more challenging than anticipated. It is like my brain always has 20 tabs open. It is taking a lot of intentional practice to shut down the tabs and allow some softening.
This card is exploring Solutio: the chemical operation of water.
FORM becomes FORMLESS.
For November, when we feel our rigidity, stuckness, and sharp edges in our thoughts, interactions, or experiences, how can we invite in a little softening?
Where and when do you find yourself gripping, holding, and tensing?
Can you invite in an exhale?
This concept of Solutio is asking for a dissolving of identities. What masks are you wearing? What roles are you playing? What definitions and stories do you have about your self and the people around you?
When we allow these aspects to dissolve, we have greater access to our essence underneath it all. The core energy of who we are and who we want to be.
Our action and life force then arises up from this organic place.
Kim Krans writes “[ Solutio is] the heart of Alchemy, as in the axiom SOLVE ET COAGULA (dissolve to unite).”
“Dissolve to unite”
That is a powerful concept.
When we let go in this way, it creates space for the next evolution of self to emerge.
As I write this the sun is setting in the late afternoon (we just changed the clocks back this weekend) and it is clear the season of darkness is here. In this shadowy season we are being invited into this process of stripping down to what is under it all- the self.
Who are we BEING?
“By surrendering to the waves, we unite with the primordial essence and return to our deepest self.” -Kim Krans
May we surrender to the waves this November and meet our core knowing.
XO Sara
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